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New Cell Phone
Get Souped
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[22 Mar 2005|04:25pm] |
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A - Age you got your first kiss: 11
B - Band listening to right now: jammim to Jt.. DUH
C - Crush: hmm.. him
D - Dad's name: BOB!
E - Easiest person to talk to: Paige, Lizzie S, Ryan
F - Favorite bands at the moment: JT
G - Gummy worms or gummy bears? Gummy bears.
H - Hometown: Newport/Newbedford
I - Instruments: None
J- Junior High: Thompson
K - Kids: 987460975436
L - Longest car ride ever: I dont remeber.
M - Mom's name: Steph
N - Nicknames: Carlos, Los, Carlz
O - One wish: My brohter was healthy
P - Phobia[s]: Scary movies ............ monsters in my closet
Q - Quote: "Left, right, trigger, down square, square."
R - Reason to smile: him.
S - Song you sang last: Signs- Snoop ft. JT
T - Time you woke up [today]: 6:40
U - Unknown fact about me: I'd rather keep it unknown
V - Vegetable you hate: Onions! blah
W - Worst habit(s): Playing with my toes
X - X-rays you've had: Not really so much..
Y - Yummy food: Anything involving cheese..
Z - Zodiac sign: LiBrA
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| Lucky bitch, that's me. |
[19 Mar 2005|01:55pm] |
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I almost couldn't go to the dance tonight. But, with much screaming and yelling, I convinced my parents, or my dad anyways.
I'm like not even that souped, I mean, I don't even have anything to wear..
Got kicked out of the movies last night, haha. Me and John bitching at that guy, kinda funny, I was pissed though. Then going to Lizzie's and basically just watching her fall asleep, then Brandt like rapped her. HAHA. But I guess there's nothing like going to BK to get cheese cake.. ?
I love my friends. : )
Especially yesterday having like a bra and underwear party, or atleast watching Mena have one.
Gotta pick out an outfit!
<3
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[16 Mar 2005|04:25pm] |
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I had to pee in a cup today.
And I don't really know why.
My parents are just physco.
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| Happy Again |
[06 Mar 2005|07:40pm] |
Things just happened so.. p e r f e c t l y.
For the first time in awhile,
I'm actually.. h a p p y.
And it's just so nice to know,
That YOUR the reason w h y.
And yes, to everyone who was invovled in "the movie" I love you all and thankx for everything, it truly WAS a good ending..
<3
C*A*R*L*Z
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| I found delight in your love |
[02 Mar 2005|03:08pm] |
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He was supposed to be
Just a one night
In and out and I'm out the door
But he's got me sittin here
At the red light
Drivin round lookin out for him
Now I finally know what I want, I know what he wants, I know that she is finally over it. Makes a lot more sense this way, I wish it was like this from the beginning. Now, where will this take us?
<3 Through the eyes of a wounded child
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| I really don't know |
[27 Feb 2005|12:18am] |
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I don't know what I'm feeling
I'm not being an honest person
But I just don't know how to put it
And I'm SO scared of the outcome
I need to tell him
and her
Soon
Before "the movie" is over, I hope it has a happy ending.
I just hope they both know that I've never felt this way before, and I hope she understands, more then him
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| Just Lovely |
[25 Feb 2005|01:22pm] |
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I HATE PARENTS, I want them to die, well, mine anyways. I've stayed in almost every night for the stupidest things that they some how come up with and it's fuckin VACATION! I'm so souped outta my mind that they are both working tonight so I can fuckin WILE out!
Anyways... Yeah solast night I drove around in a car doing absolutly nothing. We were looking for a place to go and maybe drink but, of course, I had to come home. But Lizzie made me feel less like a loser cuz she stayed in too, "Stop being a fat ass!" haha you crack me up!
Antoine Walker is back on the Celtics I'm fuckin souped
Los
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| Tear me up once again |
[23 Feb 2005|01:09pm] |
ok, yeah I couldn't go a week without updating so I'm just going to continue cuz I'm a loser...
Over the past week, lots has happened, wow, LOTS. Some good, some bad. The past couple of days has been pretty weird and confusing, but whatever I'm learning to deal.
So this vacation hasn't been too eventful for me, I've been doing a lot during the day but practically nothing at night. I'm looking to change that. Something good is that I've been doing alright with the drinking situation.. I say that as if I'm some kind of alcoholic.. psh .. and a lot of the drama with 'the whoa stage' (paige) has calmed down, it was really hectic, but now, it's better.
Tonight I have to go to some softball camp, to get ready I guess, or maybe it's just cuz they need actual catchers instead of having the dads do it .. ? .. ughhhh, I was souped outta my mind for softball but now, basketball just ended and all I wanna do is relax, not jump right into another sport! And it's not like I'm gonna be able to catch this year cuz a certain someone already has that position, should be interesting to see what happens...
hmm .. *Los
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| How stupid of me |
[15 Feb 2005|04:49pm] |
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Candy Shop |
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Okkkkkkayyy .. wow.. so, my last entry wasn't too nice of me. I shouldn't have said that, I really don't know what's wrong with me.
Anyways.. for real this time, this is gonna be my last entry, maybe I'll make another one when my life makes alittle more sense.
<3 For the last time .. Los
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| Yet another mistake to cry apon |
[12 Feb 2005|08:17pm] |
Yeah, I fucked up .. AGAIN! I don't know what I was thinking or why I did it. I honestly don't know whats wrong with me anymore, I'm losing my friends piece by piece for the stupidious things I tend to do. It's so normal for me now, that whenever I have fun, I KNOW that it won't last long, and that I will suffer in the end. The weekends roll on and out come all the stories, out comes all the bitching and out comes all my apologies. I say to myself that I'm not doing it anymore, I don't get why I always forget about that when I'm doing it again and again.
I wish I could take back 2005, but I can't. There's nothing I can do to change what's been happening and if you really don't want to be my friend then I guess that's all you. Obviously I'm sorry OUT OF MY MIND but I honestly don't know what else to say or do to show you that. I just hope that years from now we can look back on this and laugh our asses off about how stupid I was, but until then, I can only wish for your forgiveness...
<3 Once again, Shameful
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[11 Feb 2005|05:32pm] |
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This boy, he's really crampin my style
Way too much drama with this whole situation, I don't really know what to do because I have no idea where my feelings are right now. People will tell me it should be one way, but I honestly can't see it working out. With all these different opinions, I don't know what I should do, or even what to really believe. This whole thing is actually kind of funny, I think it's a real triangle we got going on here.
Anways! I wonder what I might do tonight, I'm definetly not drinking or any of that stuff so what is there to do? I might go to the boys game, but I dont know if I'm up for that, too much basketball! Speaking of bball, first round of playoffs tomorrow! Ut oh.... Maybe I'll actaully do good this game and socre more then, hmmmm, 0 POINTS! haha.
<3 Carls .. ew, no .. <3 Los : )
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| I feel like I'm the only guilty one. |
[09 Feb 2005|07:23pm] |
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Before any of this started, before I got involved, you 2 were so happy, is this me? What am I wrecking? Maybe it's not, I hope it's not, but I just happened to realize. But if I was never there, would you feel the same way? I need to know if this is worth it.
I never noticed how people can crave someone for so long and hide it with out showing any weakness, until it happened to me.
To the girl affected, I truly am sorry.
<3 Concerned
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| Notice me |
[08 Feb 2005|05:09pm] |
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I was with him, but all I did was close my eyes, open them, and hope it was you. I can't say this anymore clearly, I can't make it anymore obvious. I just wish you would notice.
<3 Revengful
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[06 Feb 2005|08:57pm] |
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Game time bitchessssssssssss
Wow, what a night last night. Driving around, going to walmart in happyfeet and um, a # 24 jersey. haha. Watching Cabin Fever, oddest movie ever, Ryan in Liz's skirt and shorts, woooooowwww, mad funny. The random pinky gesture. Good time good times.
Right now my boys are winning 14 to 7, I'm pretty souped. Earlier I was at Marielle's, but my dad made me come home at halftime. I lost all my money to Aije in dice, usually I got that hot hand, not tonight, haha.
Gonna go catch the rest of the game.
<3 just Los
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| One so caught up in a dream she forgets its not real |
[02 Feb 2005|02:56pm] |
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I just wish everything was like it used to be. I think about this all the time and imagine myself back when I was a lot happier. We were never like we are now, I never had this kind of problem, and I never complained this much. DAMNIT ... I hate reality.
I really got a kick out of one of the desks in Ms. Hall's room. Actually did make me laugh .. thankx Marielle ; )
Oh, and I do care, I really do.
<3 deprived
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[01 Feb 2005|07:32pm] |
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She doesn't get it. They don't get it. No one gets it.
<3 Forgetful
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| Look at what you did |
[31 Jan 2005|05:23pm] |
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Cry Me A River |
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I.Couldn't.Breathe.When.You.Said.It.Was.Over.
This. Has. Taken. My. Speech.
<3 Confused
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| Heartless |
[30 Jan 2005|03:02pm] |
What a crazy night. Beer cans everywhere, people in every room, getting cussed out .. insane. I said I wouldn't drink again, but someone wasn't there to help me like I thought they would be. Atleast I didn't hook up with anybody, don't need another story to spread.
Things got better since last night, drama is finally settling down, or is it? There are some people I need to thank .. Lizzie S. and Justin, thankx for helping me out : ) : )
Game today, fabulous, let's break our 3 game loosing streak shall we?
<3Los
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